i feel the tug.
in just a few short weeks
it will rip.
just a phone call away
with a subtle tinge of hopelesness
you’re leaving… anyway
i need someone to take care of me
as i selfishly walk out the door
get in my car and drive off
tears fall rolling off round cheeks
i plunge into the depths
where i all i hear are mumbles
words that mean nothing
swimming in my head
love. happiness. care.
blinded by the pools in my eyes
i seek shelter
wrapped in the lack of embrace
her arms nevermore
her cries fall upon straining ears
ears separated by time and distance
denial has been here too long
though it has taken root in my soul
tearing through the shreds of sanity
burying itself deeper inside
the fragile layers of my mind
she needs me
with tears streaming down my face
hiccuping for air
as if my chest will never settle again
i never knew how much i needed her
she keeps me sane
now. NOW. it is madness that i feel
piercing pain shoots through my chest
the TEAR - the rip
the TEAR - the river of emotion
I gasp for air
and choke on saliva.
weeks until she may be gone forever.